Start.
These few weeks has been quite hard for i believe most in my course. I do not feel a need to elaborate, but just really glad that we got a week of ‘break’. ha, before the fierce 1 month coming up.
Standards are raising, people are catching up. If you don’t stay focus and endure till the end, you’ll start to loose out. and the results are damn obvious. Therefore, stress.
i’m not saying i do not enjoy what i do, i believe it’s seriously better than me taking out textbook and memorizing formula or the different dynasty of china. But, the state of mind won’t be calm, and external (necessary) pressure from outside seem to be making it worse. To say it didn’t affect me was lying, but i never allow it to be in the way and obstructing my work.
Things in class hasn’t been quite pleasant. I said i needed time, but i’m not sure how much can i give. Will just let things flow naturally, i see no point in forcing myself to be like before. that way will only hurt whatever friendship we have left right now.
Enough said.
I miss mummy so much, cos now there isn’t someone close that understands how exactly i feel just by looking at my face. Somethings only mothers know =)
I’m going to float away now! see what next week brings.
